Red Cross brings you to tears very often.
Okay no, more specifically, footdrill.
Especially if you're in-charge with someone who's particularly isn't doing what he is supposed to.
I expect my job to be quite easy, assisting th dear commander,
but its th other way round.
Its difficult to be someone who's strong in her stand, knowing whatever that's best for everyone.
Maybe i should've known better but again, perfection is not what you've always seen in a person,
but what you've always wanted to see.
I know pretty well things don't really fit nicely to my own accord &how much i had put in th effort to just re-arrange th fate, nothing worked.
&this is so obvious that one-sided commitment isn't strong enough to make th dreamt storyline.
All you ever afford to do is just watch as everything flies by in your eyes; like it or not.
Just selfish& cowardly.
Worse, you would turn all others mistakes to cover your own.
You expect me to change yayayaya for th better,
Until you've discovered whats meant to be, then you could jolly well hope for th ending you've been dreaming of.

Competition's in 1 month's time.
& no iAM NOT GIVING UP.