Dear Tiq,

I think I'm prolly okay right now.
Well, what do you know, I'm an upbringing woman with repressed anger flowing in me.
Formative teens kinda suck cause we easily surrender to big-O emotions.
But its ABIT fun too because we can do what th adults can't do.
Ytd i had hell lot of fun; i mean cause we got to catch up with one another with show&tell plus saying things we would not have said(like real mean things like how I**** hates his gf's parents) to our bfs & gfs and watch alot of (hilarious)Japanese's game shows on youtube while eating 2 boxes full of Munchy's donuts. I wonder how will we be when we grow up; like who's gonna get married first or who will be th first pioneer successful one in th family or bullshits like who's the first heart that is gonna stop beating forever. Its freaking scary because th future is never in our hands how much we ever try to work it out. I remembered how 8 years ago, when we wanted to be in th older, teenage cliques so we invited ourselves to th room where they will pour alot of verbal crap, us kids did not have a clue how to do it. But all those kental-unmatang ones, were kicked out and asked to leave and shut th door behind us. So, we entertain ourselves by jumping on another room's bed while clutching th big rabbit soft-toy. & When we were utterly bored, we would sneak infront of th closed doors and carefully put our ears on th door. I bet everyone knows we were sneaking up on them because just outside were th parents whom i bet were always discussing about th next holiday getaway or about us, you know how we are progressing and stuffs, oh and family recipes too. Th matang people in the room i bet knows too(might be from th shadows of our feet or our unsteady footsteps or our accidental giggle) because everytime we were near, suddenly their mutters stop. Cruel teens, we say. Haha, but now, everyone is in th same room sharing about almost anything. We even huddled with each other on one big bed, while freely putting our legs on one another's limbs and play their hair plus switching phones now and then. Just look how far we've come. I'm so proud of all of you.

&Stop asking when will I find atleast one guy. Love comes when they come. Yeah thats why I'm patiently waiting. & I dunno, really I dunno. I could go bonkers SOMETIMES thinking about this. Cause just look at you guys, so freaking happy with each other. Oh and stop getting pissed with your parents! You know restu is very important in every child's life. & try looking at th bright side. Though very, very difficult, it helps. I'll write to you some other day alright.