Yet but three? Come one more.
Two of both kinds makes up four.
Here sh comes, curst &sad.
Cupid is a knavish lad
Thus to make poor females mad.




Love is a supercharged whirlwind, like th source of warmth that turned my heart as cold as ice. From what my company detest &from all th sorrowful tales, I believe it's th abject of all desire that is essential to both kinds but also has to be distant from.

We never could find an answer why &how it fades away, cause everybody claims its natural (not that th love was bogus or anth, it just happens), and thats why I cried, you cried, every other person cried, because of uncertainty and that we couldn't put our hands on any particular button to alter th hard truth. We cried because we felt emptied out of a sudden, not because of th duration, but because it's over (done with). I guess its th emptiness that comes from letting go of something that's been yours for so long. Something that you've poured your hope into, now doesn't need it because it's done. You've given all your love, you've been hearing th hum of expectation for so long, and now suddenly it's quiet; which creates tension, frustration, confusion and th loss of strength &faith. As though it's wasted, that your life is jaded now, but wallowing on it is not an option is it? We'll tear a little while, but we'll get over it right?

I realized that some love, no matter what happens, never ends, and there will be as much comfort as sadness in knowing that you will always love someone, even if you can't be together: just like a property; once you own it, it'll be yours forever, even if it was given away or sold to, there's this sense of belonging that lingers on. But th difference is th weight now, how much you possess th love they have, which could be a little, alot, half or still th same. Yet, never worry, they still care. That's what you never tried to know. Cause somehow, we tend to feel that if they wouldn't have anything to do with us, it'll be easier to progress.

I guess we didn't want anything from each other anymore. I think that's what it is. We were just a girl & a boy, who've known each other for many years, who've loved each other, and hurt each other, who carried on with life and who've isolated each other. &You'll be apart of me, indefinitely, you just won't know that. That everything I did all this time, were interrupted by th thoughts of you, &th effects were frustrating. But now it'll be different. You'll be out of th picture &I will have th space I always needed.

Lets see it this way, if we always get things th way we've always wanted it, life will be dull and boring. It could be monotonous after a while. So as a journey, when we found it, it'll be one full, complete as hell, story. So damn bloody sweet, so just wait awhile.



When you think you've lost it, stand back up because nobody else can stand up for you. When you have th courage with your own, two feet, start a step &naturally it'll move on, definitely to somewhere you will belong.