Th very least I need in a friend is to understand how &when I need a little, alot or neutral space.
Th thing abt newcomers in my life is how I expect very little from them.
&How I'm more comfortable in pretending; to be happy or simply ok.
But I couldn't stop exerting expectations from all of you because its not always tt ppl have a clue of my state of mind.
&Sometimes I need all of you to understand that I only answer to myself &that sometimes I prefer to be left alone.

I'm still in trance.
I know i know i know there's such ppl who finds happiness in misery.
But I didn't thought that it would be somebody I know.
Why must you always come ard when I alrd played my part in controlling this outburst of confronting you?
You're testing my patience.
If you think of taking my friends away will weaken me, you're wrong.
I'm only a step closer to my true ending; you didn't know that.
&If you think I couldn't survive w/o them, you're fucking wrong.
What more without you?
Lol.

Labels: FUCK YOU.