I don't think we can force anybody t stop caring/loving, whatever.
It comes down t a conclusion how impossible it is.
Maybe for a little while, I seemed t not give a damn, but it's inevitable how I couldn't stop.
&I realized I couldn't force you to, too.
Because after all these years; despite how many times I let you down, you're still persistently coming back, tgth w a trail of hope.
You still had that smile, still had that similar light in your eyes.
You just couldn't change.
&Secretly, even though how painstakingly difficult I am, I don't want you to.

Once you love a person, its unalterable, it'll only reshape into another form.
&This time, I wish you were here.
But all so differently.