Sometimes broken, you can't find some of th pieces back again; being mended was only imaginary.
Sometimes I wish I had a license on things that would show me whether I'd qualify or not, or smth like a warning whenever things are gonna turn out bad, when it's ticking to th red alert; to save me from confusion, to save me from more misfits, &more disappointment.
You know, it was a relief these days, to switch off &just be myself. Not to have get results, or prove a point, or explain why in th world I'm feeling a certain way. I can just have some fun w/o feeling guilty or feeling th need t justify myself.
&There was never really a real conversation I had w anyone eversince school started. Barely, I mean. Th progression fluctuates from time t time, leaving me w blinding feasibility of having any deeper relationship at all. &If you'd ask me, what do I really want; At this moment, I would definitely say people who could take me seriously, ones who could bring me t th other side (god knows what th other side means). I just want to feel a little bit of thrilling; a little bit of heart fluttering moment?
Hahaha who am I kidding?