Wow my cheeks hurt from a full day of continuous talking, bitching &laughing. And th best part is getting to eat at anytime we want! After 6, I got Helmi to fetch me from school &we went over to town &catch Ugly truth. I wanted IB but I chickened out in th end. I missed nights out; missed th cool wind, th overcrowded places, they made me feel like I'm apart of smth you know. Nevertheless, it was a very confusing moment; I have so many things branching out in my mind, so many people I care about, so many I hate to disappoint, so many dreams &there's so many things I want. I don't know where to start, &I can't let any go so it keeps on stacking up &getting way overloaded. I am blacking out soon. Helmi refused to smoke th whole time we were tgth just now! It was so irritating, I have to practically beg him to! I needed t smell them atleast, idk, it makes me feel, safe?