Th potential tears that weld up is alw stronger than th one before.

I have some one on my mind but Alvin is staring at me sideways, praying I would blink &my rain would fall. I swear he's laughing under his muttered breath. Take me seriously, could you?

We're on a childish game of high horse where he claimed my personality, very "questionable" &progressive. I said, sorry ah, I haven't self-actualized. Sarcasm is th only defense to stupidity, they said, so I used em. Th convo went smth like this, roughly a little scripted now tho.

"I really think you have attention deficit disorder, naf"

"Oh yeah? Where th hell do you get tt from? Which chick told tt to you?"

"You underestimate me, my child- I read. Atleast more than you think I do."

"Yeah? I think its a lucky find."

"Ok put it this way; pretty lucky find. I am a little wiser than you abt this, so you should be nice to me."

"Knowledge varies &is inexpensive in alot of ways. I'm not gonna suck up."

"See where we're gg? Its because of you tt we're straying frm my original topic."

"See, its yours not mine. Besides, I'm pretty convinced I dont have whichever symptoms of this lack of attention thing."

"Sometimes you know, I wish you're a little hush-er. No wonder you're a singular figure now."

.................(honestly this guy!!!! I then kept quiet, thank you)

"Anw, you said it yourself, tt your commitment for anth is withering."

"I didn't say tt. I said I'm meandering only. &I dont expect you to remember anw."

"Helmi told me a little smthsmth too; evidences of your struggle."

"Its just school, tts it."

"No! You cant even focus on smth for a minute! Just look at your field trip! You keep on changing venues, then in th end you said you dont wanna do it &prefer failing. Its evth you see."

"Fuck you alvin. Shutup, I needa find my voice again before I start believing you."

You get th idea dont you? Sometimes I forget he's literate &intimidating just cause he's a guy. Behind th very jerkish ways, I refuse to believe he's a man w stature. Hate him. I wish I'm contradicting enough to surprise ppl too. I'm so predictable I hate myself.