Inspiration is like a spark of light in pitch darkness &freedom is a pathway that leads you to th door of salvation. How much I remembered myself in love, or (more likely) almost in love, double is that I was encouraged to celebrate life. Sometimes I hear happiness calling a mile away, but there are more days when solitude is a heady wine that intoxicates you with freedom while other days are a poison that makes you beat your head against th wall. Still existentially having physiological needs, I think I am always racing forward or backward to purposely oppose conventional outline to cure my displeasure of this world of scum &second hand originality. Thats why I love Gaga. I mean you get what I mean. You dream of being exceptional but whats th chance of you being one in a million? Zero! Now, everyone looks &speaks th same- we're only determined with different faces &different names.

Demanding excellence isn't a crime, but I agree it could be virtually undermining when you get obsessive. I can't predict where my feet are taking me this time, but I would like to promise myself of imminent bliss &structural success. Expectancy or hope, is a form of happiness, itself.