Sometimes lies are so addictive. Addictive as you tell them w th confidence that th other party will never find out but especially more addictive when they were told to you while knowing its a lie. Maybe addictive's not th word. Take it from a different angle perhaps, lies to a certain extend are considered as stories; not wholly truthful (fictional, in another) but demand as equal imagination; what more on spontaneity. &Then it comes a point when I just want to be lied at w/o being revealed th truth. Patience can only hide so little of your weakness for a short period; so you need an affordable way to hide more flaws of life then yield to drugs or cigarettes. You still need creativity to lie to yourself tho. How else do you think dreams work?