I sleep cocooned in milky light, floating amongst the lost hopes &fantasies of children that have somehow slipped through the atmosphere to haunt me here. When I sleep, I dream of people dying, sometimes I dream I'm alice, sometimes susie. On very rare occasions, I dream of him; his face a watercolor blur, but his pulse overtook every of my breath, his fingertips shaping every contour of my body. I dream of all that he is &everything i can never hold on to. Then I see girls with loose plaits, torn clothes &wounded skin, running away from me, their blue eyes tempered like broken glass. I thought I was a vampire- my veins loosening into shimmers of light, but as i look down, I only notice a a pale shade air of invisibility; no feet, no clothes. My, I cried so hard! I cry jewel-bright tears above the ocean &stared at my reflection. I didn't know whether I still exist or not. Send me your well-wishes &help tell the sun to not vanish me when he comes out to work. I'll try to live.