I have grown to love secrecy. It seems to be th one thing that makes modern life mysterious or marvelous to us. The commonest things could only be delightful if one hides it. But out of all th things I've learnt to bury, I couldn't embrace these fears without telling anyone about it. How can you help yourself for being so incompetent because a friend gets so depressed about being incompetent? How can you contain all th emotions of being so afraid when this perplex genius comes around &amuses himself with you? How can you tell yourself to shove away th things you want most because it attracts this certain curse that you'll never get it? How can you not be afraid?