I don't wanna keep on wishing, missing.
Th still of th morning, th colour of th night.
I ain't spending no more time wasted.



Today was pathetic. If I've known, I shouldn't have attended school. Anw, there was a school phototaking session just now on th school field! Yes, th field. For what? I dunno. Maybe for some invitation cover for our 45th speech day atau apa-apa yang ada sewaktu dengannya lah uh. Yeah and we were th beautiful BACKDROP (!!!) (-.-) while there were some more important geeks in crispy, hotter(haha!), red blazers forming a formation of idunnowhat. &This shows just how obviously bias th school is, prioritizing specialists nerds who are capable of catering better results for this rich, future school. Anw, it was held like exactly after flag-raising when th bright, yellow, cheerful, blind, sun is rising(????). Dumb. So we were standing at our supposed positions for around 20 minutes while tanning ourselves aaaaaaahhhh when th phototaking period was barely 5minutes! It was schooltastrophy! omg I shouldn't mention.

Oh & Malay O's is only three days away! Th whole week we have MT intensives for two hours but I'm not pretty secure myself, though its just one grade up to distinction! Anw, I could've gotten A2 for MYE but Cikgu minus off 4 damn useful marks because of my menyeleweng-ed karangan! So just now, during th last hour of malay lesson before O's, Cikgu was talking and we were all quite sad. Sh said that we are her first batch sh took for all four years and soon enough, Ierfan said he could start memaparkan his vulnerable side and cry (but he couldn't lah. Haha, that guy only knows how to talk big). Its been a huuge deal for her i guess, and its gonna be tough now that her dad is fighting for his life while sh, herself is shaking her ass, worrying about him, and us, some 29 students from Jurong Sec sitting for a bloody paper. Sh said, sh could only doa for us and that we will be in her mind when sh sees th paper, &if th paper is really tough, sh said sh will melinangkan air mata. Hahaha! What does that show? Somehow or rather it conveys that we are still not prepared and her confidence towards us is not strong enough. I mean, we're all insecure with our malays because according to her, this pathetic batch always speaks in Eng even during MT lesson, that is why me, Nurul and Ierf, sitting right under Cigu's nose, bet each other 20 cents (now increased to 50 since monday) if anyone of us utter one single word of eng. Anyway, I'm not so shaken because I know that being nervous wouldn't help and we have to, definitely sit through it. But I'll do my best. Won't be that bad right? Riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight.

Anywayy, June is seriously booked/packed and whatever words that could come in between. I have mass dance to prepare, plan Appreciation night, be in-charge of f&b with Dori and Sem, choreograph fancy drill for musical, train people in parade, plan some dates, go for study camp, draw this, design that, stress my butts off with tons of birthdays &sleepovers and shopping for th presents, worry for my own, birthday plans while missing someone (whom I've been seriously thinking about eversince I got occupied), oh and not forgetting, mugging for O's. Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiizzzzzzzzzz. I'm in deep shit I tell you. But I love being busy:D, okay well, somehow.

******Pray that I get 1 for Malay. Tell me after you did &I'll pray for you too.


Its Cook's season I tell you.
I was damn scared cause Archuleta did a more pleasant performance than him in th finals, so my confidence was brittle.
Th next day, I told Ierfan, should've strongly stayed with my heart.
&All he say is, (I dunno maybe he wanna act profound or shit) "Tulah you just gotta have a little faith"
Haha, PUI AHHHH!
Anyway, its a rejoicing moment.
Luckily I didn't lose 5 bucks to th bet cause he was to kedi.

OH AND THIS ARE MY FAVS :D

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