I was watching 90210 ytd because I tried t prevent myself away from th computer.
Right before I decided t scroll t other channels, I came across;
"There's another way t see things"
"&That is by your intuitions"

I wonder how intuitions play a role.
How do you know whether t trust it or desert th consciousness?
Is there such thing as a strong &weak intuition?
I searched under th dictionary &this is what I found, "direct perception of truth, fact, etc., independent of any reasoning process; immediate apprehension.

I think intuition is an immediate feeling that looms above you that turn into both curiosity &doubt.
Sometimes they save you, sometimes they get you into trouble.
Whenever I have an intuition or just merely a feeling, I have this nasty dilemma because I was told every now &then that there is such thing as thinking too much kills &plainly premonition, itself.
I will only forsake things if it doesnt mean much t me, other than that, I will try t decipher it in any possible way I can.
But I dont think, "Thinking too much kills."
Its more t whether or not thinking too much is necessary or vice versa.
Anw, then there's this other thing called fate.

Fate is harder t decipher.
Is it a human condition, as natural as hunger, t leave things in th hands of fate; in a sense that things will only happen if it's meant t happen?
This illustration can burst me into tears cause some tried t even tell me fate is in my hands.
How can fate be in my hands when evth is alr planned out for me?
I know sometimes in th recesses of our sweet heart &hard head we believed that we're inclined t stop taking a seat back / watch how fate is transforming our lives BUT just be aggressive &more active. Cause, they said, whatever things you insist on doing; its still in th name of fate.
Its like your whole life is fated.
So what could possible go wrong??????
Oh my goodness!
I need a peace of mind!!!
Guys? Some help here!!

EDITED
Actually, (hahahahaha) I think we(or I) confused ourselves(myself) claiming certain things are fate.
We ( I) have t start seeing th bigger picture.
When smth bad happened &when we pointed out that its fated t be that way, its definitely gonna be depressing. But ofcourse it's still fate, only, if you choose t take a different turn t be a better person or still choose t maintain things th way they are, then that is how fate is in our hands.
&Until evth happens, then we could label it as fate.
If we foresee things as a primetime headline of fate, then i think we're only fooling ourselves.
Cause guys, we have t make th best out of every second we have.
&We do, still have a grip on our chances.
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&I had a total blast today!!!
Omg I couldn't laughed like that in ages!
I didnt think I could find bestfriends like this in million years!
How am I suppose t start from scratch in a foreign place?!

Anw was watching He's just not that into you.
Man, it was more depressing than entertaining!
There's this guy sitting on my right who laughed at all th wrong moments!!
Worse, most of th audiences had similar psycho views like him!
Once, Ben Affleck in th movie, was talking abt how marriage is bad because, "Why is there a need for some costly show(wedding) t certify our friendship?" (or smth like tt)
&This guy eating cheese dipped nachos (which stink along w his some budget perfume cum cigarette smell), was like, "True".
I turned t him, my jaw dropped, almost mouthing "pundek betol".
Then turned t Amalina &we were like, "Siak ah, how can that be true?"
I think he heard cause during th rest of th show, he was mimicking every single move I did(like crossing my legs or leaning forward or adjusting my hair!!!)
&Theee show's conclusion was how only a bunch of exceptional girls will end up w a great guy!
&21st century fact: Guys are real jerks!
Haha, how not depressing!

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