&If there's any justification to your unpardonable shadowed behavior would be how you're torn apart, or neutral and how you get sick of having to juggle different faceshift at th same time.
But I didn't ask you to tip to any side, or be consistent in helping my ass, cause I've stopped trusting you.
Other than that, I don't think your revulsion is psychologically credible cause wait, who am I to you?
That, you should know; cause if not I won't second guess &I'll choose to stop wasting my time to further uphold this crap cause it can only be either pure, or not.
&Honestly, I dunno anymore.
I don't know what you are, I dunno what I want.
I was indignant, abit hurt but my impetuosity controls &direct me more wisely.
You should always know that I don't wallow too long on th drama cause I'm be known to real life &sour heart.
&You should know too, I'm very capable in standing on my own.
People told me to scale down my judgments, cause they know I'm prone to irrational decisions, that I could be led to strong sensitivity to different degrees.
But to tell you th truth, I'm sick.
I'm sick of being self-deluded by our weak relationship &get distracted by what's true or not.
You said you're true, but you think I believe you?
You think I love what's on th other side?
My doubts &my uncertainty?
No, I don't.
&I wanna stop this.
I wanna know what's true.

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